Episode 2: 5 Weeks Pregnant & IDK what I’m Doing…

A Walk at the Park, 5 Weeks Pregnant

Today I went to the park, and on the surface it felt like such a small thing. Just a walk. Fresh air. A few laps around the path. But at five weeks pregnant, nothing really feels small right now.

I’m still wrapping my head around the fact that I’m pregnant. Some moments I feel overwhelmingly excited—like my heart is quietly buzzing with possibility. Other moments, I feel completely lost. And then there’s the anxiety, sneaking in when I least expect it, whispering questions about the next few months, the next year, the next version of me.

It’s such a strange mix of emotions to hold all at once. Joy and fear. Gratitude and uncertainty. Confidence one minute, doubt the next. I don’t think I realized how mentally consuming early pregnancy could be until I was in it.

One of the biggest sources of my anxiety lately has been information overload. Or maybe… misinformation overload. I’ve spent hours researching what I should and shouldn’t be doing while pregnant—what workouts are “safe,” what foods are “off-limits,” what habits I should stop immediately. And somehow, every source seems to contradict the last. One article says something is perfectly fine, the next insists it’s dangerous. It’s exhausting and honestly a little paralyzing.

I want to do everything right. I want to protect this tiny life growing inside me. But the constant back-and-forth leaves me questioning myself more than trusting myself, and that’s a hard place to sit.

That’s why today, I went to the park.

Walking has become one of the simplest ways I’ve found to ease my anxiety during this early stage. It reminds me that movement doesn’t have to be complicated to be helpful. That staying active can be gentle. That I can still show up for my body without pushing it.

Out there on the path, I felt a little more grounded. A little more present. A little more trusting—of my body, of the process, of the fact that I don’t need to have everything figured out right now.

I’m learning that pregnancy isn’t about having all the answers. It’s about listening. It’s about giving myself grace when I feel unsure. It’s about finding small moments—like a walk in the park—that help me feel like myself again.

I don’t know exactly what the next few months will bring. I know there will be more questions, more learning, probably more anxiety mixed in with excitement. But today reminded me that slowing down and staying connected to my body can make the unknown feel a little less overwhelming.

For now, that’s enough. 🌿

What helped prep you for parenthood? Is there anything you wish you knew sooner?